It is Sunday evening now, and I feel yucky!!! I was doing better the past week. The ear ringing had gone back to just a few times a day and soft enough to mostly tune out. I was only "off kilt" feeling and not really too nauseous at all. I got sick in Walmart yesterday and even sitting here all afternoon, I feel AWFUL! My ears hurt and are ringing LOUD, and if I get up and move around at all, I start to feel really dizzy and yucky. :(
Other than that, it's been a nice weekend. Robert is filling out his college application and working on finding a permanent job next month when he is 18. Barbara and I spent the afternoon looking at colleges online and working on a financial aid calculator. That's a joke too! It's hard to believe, but by this fall, Robert will be in tech school and Barbara will be applying at the universities/colleges of her choice. Oh my goodness!!! Where has time gone? Better yet, where will time go? because I know this time is going to fly by. Robert was talking with me today, and he made me almost cry. He said he'd help pay for a cuttlefish bone the birds need in their cage because he knew we were really tight. I commented in reply. He then told me that in the summer, "Things are going to get better, Mom. I will be working full time, and I will help you and Dad out. I can give you money for groceries or stuff..."
I'm so surprised at how much he's grown up in the last few months. This is my "tight" child that said this. He's always been very tight with his money and not very generous like the other two are, so for him to even think of this and to say and mean it, is really something! I think I am more proud of him than I could ever have imagined!!!!
I love my kids so much! Rob and I may have made a lot of mistakes and really "screwed" up things in the past, but those three are the one thing we did right! And it's not like we really "meant" to, so I guess I can't even take credit for them. God, thanks for blessing us with them, even when we didn't realize how much of a blessing they were at the time! You have given us such a special gift to have them in our lives, and I am so thankful for all the joy, laughter, and meaning they have added to my life!
Dizzy again, but thankfully yours,
Rebekah :)
