My Momma, the writer

My momma writes for the local newspaper in the area where she lives. She's been sharing her journey through the land of Cancer, but recently she wrote about something different, something weird, paranormal, a little frightening, and definitely very strange- ME! :)

http://www.qconline.com/archives/qco/display.php?id=462198

prayer request

please pray for ruhiyyih and matt. they are getting married in a few weeks and matt lost his job today. they both need God's provision and peace in this time of major life changes and stress.

struggling

I just realized that I haven't journaled in a while. I have had plenty of thoughts, just not enough time and quite honestly I've been feeling pretty discouraged so I didn't want to post anything because it wouldn't be all upbeat and happy and positive. Who wants to read that?

I know it will get better. I will be fine. Life is good, it really is! I am so thankful for all the many, abundant blessings I have been given in my life. I have so many, many things to be appreciative of and please believe me when I say I am.

I just don't like me much at all, I don't like the person people see or who people think I am. People say things about the person I am, and I realize it's not who I think I am or not what I want people to think/see/feel about me. I try to change, but am not doing a good job. I want to be so much more than I am, a better person, a really Christ-like person. Work is very, very stressful, and I am trying not to let it be that way for my students. I'm tired of feeling like my best is not enough. I can't give any more than I already do.

I am really struggling right now is all I can say. I haven't dropped off the face of the earth. I'll be back when I'm a decent human being once again. :)