It's snowing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's snowing in NC in December!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO WOO HOO WOOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are forecast for up to 4-8 inches. We'll see, but I'm SOOOO hoping it happens. It won't last until Christmas I'm sure to make a white Christmas like I would so love, but it's close enough, and it's just what I needed to help with some homesickness which has been really bothering me this month.

No, snow doesn't take the place of my momma or pop, or being home all together our whole family (Momma, Pop, Jessica, Scott, and us five crazy people), but it does make it seem more like Christmas time with some more cold-ish weather and pretty white stuff. It's just hard to believe it's Christmas when you don't have to wear a coat and the most you might need is a light jacket.

So, pardon me while I cheer, cheer, cheer and hope, hope, hope for lots more of the stuff to come. Right now we're getting some HUGE snowflakes. I'm off to go stand at my door and watch and enjoy.

midweek prayer

Hi God, it's me again. It's Wednesday night, and I'm really dreading tomorrow. I had a great day with kids and only a couple bad things today, but once again I left school feeling like a big flop. I cried all the way from High Point to Winston to pick up Matthew today. :( I'm NOT the teacher I want to be or that I have been. I feel as if I'm making excuses for myself when I try to remind myself that I am teaching two grades, that I have no assistance, that I am also very loaded with other responsibilities, jobs, etc., but that is no excuse. I feel very lonely, not really a part of anything (which is my fault too), but I also feel like an embarrassment to those who work around me. I'm pretty sure none of the teachers around me really like me much. Then there's the situation in my room, and well, God, I just feel like I've failed in so many ways this year.

Now I'm tutoring and it's quite challenging dealing with the behaviors of a couple students, and frustrating because the other two really want to learn...

I need to spend a lot of time in my room to get it rearranged and organized. It's not that I'm a slob God, but I can't keep up with things when I have no time for anything it seems. God I just want to quit, and it's not the kids God. It's me, it's the negativity and the chaos of someone else that is driving me crazy. God I need something to change. Please God, please. God I don't know how I'll even make it to next Tuesday, let alone the end of the year.