We came home from STL two weeks ago. Rob and I had to jump right back into work and our normal life things. I was so exhausted and have just been telling myself, "One more day, just get through today..." for two weeks now. I am a star member of Insomniacs Are Us, and have been tired, worn out, exhausted, whatever you want to call it many times, but I have never known this level of exhaustion. Whether it is just really all a mental "in my head" thing, allergies, or my body just having enough, I started feeling really icky this week and by the time I got to yesterday afternoon I wasn't sure I was going to make it home. Matthew wanted to take Rob and I to see Hunger Games last night so we went. I really didn't feel like it, but wanted to do something with our "baby" while he wanted to do something with us still. With Robert about to leave home, I am making sure I grab every moment we get with our kids. I got really, really sick about halfway through the movie and almost didn't make the very short ride home. I am just so thankful I have made it to the Easter break- oh, excuse me "Spring" break. :) Now I can relax if I need to, and apparently I need to. :)
I am having some strange emotions from time to time too- ones I wouldn't have thought I'd have. Twice now I've seen someone who looked like my m-i-l. It bothered me, and I don't know why. Then today we received a card from the State of Illinois offering her free transit rides on any of their public transit routes. Stupid, I know, but it irritated and saddened me at the same time. No idea where those feelings come from. I just wish things had been/were different. I wish for what never was and never can be.
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