Two Paths Diverged...

"But the gate to life is very narrow. The road that leads there is so hard to follow that only a few people find it." Matthew 7:14 (Contemporary English Version)

This has been on my mind for a while, and I keep trying to put my thoughts and feelings into words, but find it so difficult to do. I still don't know if I can begin to express myself the way I want to, but I've got to get this out of me and somewhere to think about it. I'm hesitant to do this also because I don't really even know who reads this, and am pretty sure that anyone except my closest family members will not really understand where this is coming from. Please know that this is very, deeply personal to me. I AM NOT, IN ANY WAY claiming or acting or thinking or trying to seem like I am anything. Quite the contrary, I know I am nothing without God. I know, better than anyone in my family, church, or for sure a soul that works with me, that I am just a sinner trying to rely on Jesus' grace & mercy!!! These are simply some thoughts I'm trying to understand and work through.

Okay? Okay...

I am at a crossroads in my life, once again. It really has me thinking about crossroads, forks in the road, and other divergences on the path of life. It has me thinking about my past, choices I've made, examples I've set, the way I've lived. It has me thinking about the future, what choices I will make and where they will take me in life. I would never EVER have seen myself in N.C. or anywhere far from my momma, once upon a time. Where will my life go from here? Where will I venture? Or end up when it's all said & done?

I hear so much negative talk, and I am struggling to not let it pull me down. I feel like I am looking at this divergence in the road above. So many around me are walking along, complaining about their students, complaining about the parents and families.... I feel more and more left out and different, and I'm sure I look like a snob to some who work with me because I am withdrawing more and more and participating in conversations less & less... I HATE that a lot! A WHOLE LOT!!! I want to have friends, to feel like I belong and fit in, to get along with others, to be part of "the team."

But I cannot walk that path with them. It may be the path they've chosen, but if I go down that path, I'll hate me and not be true to who I am, who I was meant to be, who God wants me to be. For whatever reason, He made me who I am, gave me the talents and personality that I have (what that says about God I'll not even attempt to figure out ;)- wink, wink), and sent me lessons in life that have made the person I am, the mom I am, the teacher I am... I must continue on the path He has placed me on here in N.C. and trust that He has a better plan for my life. I must trust that my feelings are not what really matter and that the only approval I need to be concerned about is His...

I must choose the road less travelled. I am sure, in the end, it will make all the difference.

40 years

Forty years ago today my momma and daddy were married. I've been missing my daddy more (as I usually do at this time of year when the dogwoods start blooming and remind me of another life I lived long ago), and missing my momma- well that I do always. :)

I thought a lot about our lives as I cleaned and shampooed carpets this weekend... how they'd turned out so far... where our lives had taken us all... how things had happened... I wonder who we would be now if daddy hadn't died. I wonder if I'd be a better/worse/just different person. I hope I'm better for what I've gone through and learned. I hope I am a person that makes (most importantly of all) my heavenly Father proud of me, but I hope somehow, someway my daddy can see me and is also proud of me. I know my momma is, and that knowledge helps me sometimes when I'm low.

I am even more in awe of my mom now that I am getting a little older and wiser. I understand her so much better now that I have almost grown kids of my own. I thought about her a lot this weekend, how she had to bury her husband one day before her anniversary and a few days before her birthday. What a great way to celebrate! And do all she had to do with two young girls watching her very closely. I wonder, Momma, do you know how much I watched you? Do you know how amazing you are to me? Do you know how proud I am of you? How much I love you and respect you?

Somehow I know Daddy would be proud of you Momma, and how you went on each day, week, month... How you raised us to be who we are today. How you went on to love again and live a happy, fulfilled life. How you fought and survived the big "C." How you have lived for Christ in all that you've faced.

I'm thankful to God that He chose to send my momma someone else to live life with, to love & be loved by so that she would not be lonely the rest of her days. I'm thankful for that person, I've come to call "Pop" who has loved my momma for almost 25 years and who has loved us too. I know my daddy would be proud of you too, Pop. But most of all, he'd be thankful for you and all you've done and been to Momma & to us.

So, if it's not too weird, I'll wish my daddy up in heaven and my Momma down here a happy anniversary. Daddy, you are remembered still. Momma, I love you more than I can ever say. Thank you for bringing J & me into this world with daddy, loving us every day, teaching us to love Him, and how to live and for always being there for us.

Of Rain, Cleaning, Gardening, and Cell Phones

Saturday, busy Saturday.

Today, so far,

• we've taken the girls to school for Saturday school & picked them up (of course, you didn't think I'd actually leave them there did you? ;P)
• been to Wally-world for last minute items we need for today
• dug up and moved two carloads of trees & plants (things at the old house that we had bought & planted or my parents had brought us from the midwest )
• transplanted 9 hostas, 1 fern, the herb garden Matthew & I started at the old house, two echinacea, my two "Mothers' Day trees" that the kids & Rob got me (my peach tree & dwarf Japanese maple tree), the Mexican heather, a mum, three clumps of lambs ear (Barbara says I have a love affair with this plant), Pop's hen & chicks that he brought me from his yard, and five clusters of daffodils. Matthew & I worked in the rain & were sopping wet messes when we finished putting them in the ground, but it's done now & just in time for the good, heavier rain that is now moving in
• cleaned the oven & stove & frig at the old house & taken the frig out for our neighbor to use
• shampooed two rooms' carpets
• loaded & moved two more car loads of stuff
• trashed one cell phone! Somehow in all this craziness, I forgot to take my cell phone out of my dress pocket. When Matthew loaded our filthy clothes in the washing machine after our yard work, I totally forgot the phone was in my pocket. So now I'm without a cell phone. That's the first time I've done something quite that stupid with my phone! YIKES!!!! Good going Rebekah!

Now, Rob is working with James (a neighbor at our old house who "just happens" to be a contractor and offered to come help Rob & teach Rob how to fix this mess of ceilings we have after the "great flood of 2009." ;) ;)

In a few, Matthew & I are taking Robert to work and heading back to finish cleaning the kitchen & bathroom floors & shampooing the hall & front room and load the last carload of stuff to bring over. Then we will be done, except to turn in the keys and say a last goodbye to our home for over 3 1/2 years.

I'm sick, hurting, and more tired than I can say. But we are truly just about to be done. I'll have one closet crammed with stuff to unpack- much of that is pictures and wall things to put up. Then I have to figure out how to set up the computer area, and we'll be done.

I'm SOOOOOO very ready for moving to be done and life to sort of get back to just the "normal" craziness. This is very tiring!

So, with about five minutes more to go before I have to leave again, I'm signing off. Enjoy your weekend, wherever you are!

Rebekah :)

Hodge Podge

This is going to be a hodge podge of nothing important. My brain is mush- well, okay more than normal mush. ;)

• God helped us out in a HUGE way!!! James (a neighbor at the other house) came over to look at the damage at the new house last night, then came back tonight to help Rob work on it, and is coming back tomorrow to do more. Hopefully in a few days, we'll have our ceilings back to normal and hopefully not to far down the road we'll have our floor back in like new shape. THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• I am sick!!!! I have not much voice- it keeps coming and going, and it hurts big time to talk, to swallow, to eat... I am getting sicker I am afraid, but praying this goes away quickly. I don't have time for this right now. My back is better but still hurting, but I'm thankful for better anyway!
• I am emotional today- well more than normal. I miss my daddy. Then I missed my momma & pop and thought a lot today about my life....
• I am hurting for some kids in my life, wishing I could do more for them to make their lives be what they ought to be, what every kid should have, but so many don't.
• I am aggravated at "teachers" as a whole. Between two teachers in this house and listening to things said to my girls and in my girls classes by other teachers, well I just get so tired and it brings me down, it truly does. Every child, no matter what they act like, look like, where they come from, who their parents are or what their parents do, EVERY child deserves some basic respect and kindness. Every human being on the planet needs that, no matter how young or how old, how rich or how poor, no matter their circumstances in life. Okay, enough on that. That will have to be another post, another day.
• I am blessed, so very blessed, and I know I don't deserve it. I am so utterly thankful for what I have been given in life (not just the material things, but really the "other stuff" which is more important anyway).

So with these random things I'm off to check on some kids I know, try to clear up a little of the mess that is my house, now a construction zone once again, and head to bed sooner than later I hope. We have to find a way to finish up at the other house and get it cleaned and ready soon; we're almost out of days.

Night God. Night world.

Rebekah :)

P.S. Daddy, I miss you. Happy "Going to Heaven Day."

Urgent Prayer Request

I'm sick and don't feel like much tonight. I've decided that I'm just not a grown-up person; I am great with kids, but not so much with all the rest. Oh well.

Anywhoo, on to something very urgent & important. Please say a prayer for this little baby, Stellan. He is VERY, VERY sick with heart problems. You can read more about his life so far. God has already moved in his life and healed him once, but he is once again in a life-threatening condition and needs a miracle. Please pray for him and his family and if you can, go read his momma's blog.

Night!

Rebekah :)

Parent-Teacher Conflicts

I'm going to work in a minute- I'm late, but I just have to jot this little tidbit down. I'm once again a lousy parent (at least in the eyes of a couple teachers) & I'm SOOOOO sick of this. It's been a while since I had a run-in with one of Barbara's teachers, and this time it is a couple teachers anyway and they teach both the girls. I must say that I will be glad for graduation and not having to deal with her teachers anymore. She's had a few that hated her & hated me, or at least let it be known there was a strong dislike and disdain. I've been told by a few teachers that I am "the worst parent they've known" or other such things.

I'm sick of teachers who make judgements about parents based on the part they see and who don't even take the time to get to know their children's parents let alone take time to "walk a mile in their shoes." I see this at work too, and it just brings me down. It never solves problems to just blame the home and parents- even when sometimes the issues we have or things we see may be true. There are reasons parents do what they do, and who are we to judge? I guess I just think what parent says, "Today, I want to stink at being a mom/dad? I want to royally mess up my kids' futures and their education and opportunities and life, so I'm going to make these choices to screw them up?" I don't think so. I think that like all of us, parents do what they know to do with what they have in the circumstances they find themselves in life. They often weren't dealt a good hand as a child either and may or may not have had any good role models to know any differently. They may have their own issues that prevent them from doing better even though they love their kids. They may be held back by former decisions and choices and don't know how to get out of their situation.

I'm not making excuses for myself or any of the other "bad parents." I am just saying to all the perfect, wonderful teachers out there, cut the rest of us parents some slack. The world only has a few slots for you perfect people. Someone has to suck. Leave us alone and let us do it.

House Photo Album

I'm too tired for words, but I wanted to post a link so anyone who wants to can see the photos of the house. These are all the photos on my Facebook album that I've been taking all along of the house as we signed the contract, closed, got ready for work, and the move so far. I'll be posting more as we finish up in the next couple weeks...

For tonight, goodnight,

A very tired & hurting, but happy Rebekah :)

Finally Moving Day

Just a quick note to say that today is the BIG day we've been waiting for. Tonight we'll be sleeping in a new home. :) I'll miss this house but can't wait to make the new one "ours."

If someone reads this today, please pray for S. She has a scholarship interview this morning early.

I'm off to take S to her interview and start moving after that.

Love to all!

Let the Moving Begin! :)

My goofy and adorable son, Matthew! :)

The workmen were leaving as we came in this evening after I got off work and picked up all the kids from their various places and deposited S and Robert at their destinations. Barbara, Matthew, and I made three trips with pantry & kitchen stuff. The kids helped me do some cleaning and unpacking of everything we took over tonight. :)

There is so much that needs to be done before we move in on Saturday, and I wish I had been able to get it packed up and ready to go better than I have. The boys will be such a huge blessing and help again this time, even more so since Matthew has grown up so much in the time we've been here in N.C.!!! I'm thinking Rob will just have to help them some and give them directions, and they should be able to do most of the heavy work. We still have to rent a dolly somewhere for the boys & Rob to use... Oh, another thing to remember tomorrow.

I can't but so need to take off tomorrow so that I can pack up the computer, the videos, the last bookshelf, my cedar chest & dresser.... As it is, I'll be throwing stuff in a box to let the boys and Rob move it, take it to the house & throw the stuff back into it. :) Not the best way, but it's the best I can do now. Saturday will be crazy busy with S having a scholarship interview bright & early Saturday morning, Rob having to get the moving truck early, Barbara having to be at the new house for the Lowe's people to set up the frig... It's going to be a wonderfully busy, hectic and rewarding day.

Here are the photos from the house. Hope you enjoy!

Living room before & after

Kitchen floor before & after

Almost Done, Almost There

Rob & I stopped by the house this evening to take a peek and see if we could catch the guys working on it. We thought it looked almost done last night. It is! And all I can say is - OH. MY. GOODNESS. WOW!!!!! The contractor even took the time to clean and polish up the kitchen cabinets and they just shine!!! So pretty!!!!!!! Tomorrow they will install the vapor barrier under the house, and the contractor is even going to make us new porch steps to the back door as they are pretty deteriorated, another thing not on our list for him to repair but which he is just going to do for us! We could not be more blessed & thankful or pleased with his work!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know it's silly, but I feel a little guilty for such a blessing when others have it so hard. I know it is part of life, part of God's plan for us...., and there certainly were hard, very lean times in our life- not that long ago, but still I do. So I'm hoping we can use our blessing to bless others; we're trying to do that right now, and I hope He will provide us many opportunities to do so down the road.

I plan on going over tomorrow and taking the "after" photos and posting soon, not sure when, but soon. Well, I'm off to do something- not sure where to even start and so tired, but better try to do something.

My love to all!!!!!!!

Dr. Seuss fun & a BIG, HUGE, mess!!!

Due to the "great snowstorm of March 2009" :) we didn't get to do our Dr. Seuss Day activities last Monday, so our class postponed them to this Monday. We read, and then made and ate Green Eggs & Ham. Most of the kids liked them! :) Yum! Yum!

The kids LOVED picking on me by taking my hat today. :P What fun we have together!!! We had some fun getting silly poses in too today, and I took a photo of me in my special hat. Though I do really hate photos of me, this one wasn't too bad for me.

This next photo shows just how crazy and terribly, terribly MESSY our house is right now!!! Our lives feel a bit turned upside down with all this moving mess. :) I'm so looking forward to the work being done in the house, the moving being finished and the unpacking getting done too. Hoping much of that will be able to be done this weekend. If all goes as we hope & pray, I will try to get our kitchen & bathroom set up at the new house this Friday night. I have to go to a scholarship interview with S on Saturday morning, but we'll be moving sometime Saturday for sure!

Rob took our bedframe apart tonight. Here it is sitting on the carport. It's dark and almost bedtime by the time he got done, so we just gave up on moving it until another night. We took a couple quick carloads of stuff over and are calling it a night. I'll bet the neighbors will love this sitting out there, let alone our landlord if she drives by. Oh well, it's almost over. It's almost over. It's almost over. Just hope I get some sleep soon. :)

Okay, on that note, I'm off to try to get some sleep. Night world! Night family! Night God!

Saturday

Just a quick check-in to say that we are busy packing and getting ready for the big move next Saturday! :)

Stopped by the house today to check in with the contractor and make sure he thought he'd still be on schedule before we rented a truck. He actually was about to call us with a question so our timing was perfect! Thanks God! The roof has been repaired. The kitchen floor is coming along, and they picked up our flooring for the living room & downstairs bedroom today and got that ready to go. He also told Rob & I that after he went out on the deck he has decided that he is going to replace the rotting and deteriorating seats & rails on the deck!!!! How awesome is that?!?! We really like this contractor so far; he's been perfect to us and I hope will continue to be so. I'd like to call him back in a couple years to do some work in the upstairs as the kids move out. :)

From the house, we went on to reserve our moving truck, stopped by Lowe's to update the quote for our new frig for the bank (since they took so long and our quote expired!), ran by a small local furniture store to get the quote on replacing the kids' mattresses since they are getting worn out, and the boys are too big for their bunk bed now. Rob & I grabbed a sandwich and took a short drive in the country as it was just so pretty out today. It felt so nice to have the windows down and enjoy some warm, sunny weather!!! I've been busy packing the kitchen most of the afternoon. With M & B's help, we got a lot done! My menu and grocery list for this last week here are made, and I've run out of boxes to pack in.

It's after 10 already, and tonight we lose an hour, so soon we three girls will run by the house to take a quick peak before taking S home to her bed. Soon she'll be living with us permanently which will hopefully be great for all involved. :) I always wanted another daughter, and God has blessed me with a chance to love another young lady almost as much as I love my own. Someday I want to blog about this more, but now is not the time.

The weather was just plain GORGEOUS today! Perfect spring weather, just hope it's here to stay this time. :) Weird weather we've had this week- rain last Saturday turning to ice & snow on Sunday afternoon/evening with 5 inches total of snow/ice! Then a few days later we're in the 60's & 70's- not that I'm complaining. Just a funny weather week! Got to love that old lion known as "March!"

Well, I'm off to take a peak at my house before I put my head and body down to rest.

Night God! Night world!
Rebekah :)

a profound thought that says how i feel about God

You need to read this; it so speaks how I feel much of the time about God. She hit it right on the head. It's not that I doubt God's power or His ability. I know He can move mountains, create stars, or do any number of miracles. It's just that in the scheme of all the "big" things God can do, I doubt my importance to Him in all that He has to do. How can God have time to deal with my little insignificant, sometimes selfish interests and prayer needs? And this is where I have struggled for so many, many years. She just says it right out. I love how she is so real and open. I wish more Christians were like that.

Anywhooo, Angie wrote something way more beautiful and profound than I could ever think of doing. You will be blessed. Go, read, and have a great day!

Love,
Rebekah :0

In Like a Lion

March came in like a lion for sure here in Greensboro! We actually had SNOW, lovely SNOW!!!!
This is the first and last "real snow" we'll see in this house as we're moving in a couple weeks. That made it even more special. I know my family will think I've finally lost it taking and posting so many pictures of snow when they're sick of it and ready for spring! Oh well, what can I say? After four years of no snow, it was a beautiful reminder of home! And today, the world just looks wonderful, even here in the city! Guess it's true- "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." And to me, snow is beautiful!!!!!

Looking up under my magnolia tree.

My poor dogwood tree; it had started budding out and then comes the snow.

As we always used to do since the kids were tiny and we lived in the Midwest, we took a late night walk out in the snow last night- Rob, the boys & I. Barbara didn't want to go out in the cold. :) It was so neat!!!

the magnolia tree by our driveway

Samson's first time to be in any snow of measurable amount. He was trying to decide what to think about the snow, when I caught him by surprise with my flash. I didn't no dogs could squint! :) He DOES NOT like the red light on my camera though, I know that!

our backyard- about 11PM

the front yard at 10 PM or so

The "Aftermath"

our back yard this morning

one of the trees in the front yard actually lost a few limbs

one of our wires hanging way down low this morning

the dogwood tree

Wishes for My Children

Yesterday, the president of HPU, in his talk to the parents, made many comments I liked as well as many that made me say, "Hmmm..." I've been thinking about things he said, and I'm going to have to think some more on a few points.

President Qubein made an object lesson out of a bag of Hershey's Kisses and a box of Godiva chocolates.

He discussed how each is made and their costs. Talked about how we wives would feel if our hubby brought us a mug of kisses wrapped up in a dollar bag (called that cheap) and joked about how our hubby would be in trouble... :) Compared to how we would feel if he brought us a box of Godivas. Visualized how the box of chocolates are hand-made by a chocolatier in white coat and gloves... The cost? The bag of Hershey's kisses, what about maybe $4 or $5 & the box of chocolates (I checked this morning) over $40. He was making the point that we want the best for our children. A public education is a Hershey's bag of chocolate, and HPU is the Godiva chocolates. The speech was a good speech, and I'm oversimplifying it a great deal. But that was the basic point.

Now let me say, President Qubein is certainly an excellent speaker, and his life is very inspirational to say the least. I am sure that HPU is an excellent school; and I definitely enjoyed listening to him speak.

I should also say that my viewpoint is definitely slanted; see I'm a Hershey's Kisses kind of gal. I went to public schools my whole life, attended a public state college, worked in public schools 11 of the 15 years I've been teaching... I'm not putting myself down here, but I am saying my viewpoint is not against the "Kisses" kind of chocolate. I've never even had a fancy chocolate like a Godiva. I'm sure they're wonderfully delicious, but I don't feel deprived because I have never tasted something so wonderful. On the contrary, my life is richer for having known and worked with a whole lot of "normal" people from the "kisses" side of life. I don't think having something so wonderfully rich and decadent could make up for the lessons I've learned along the way or the people who have touched my life and hopefully whose lives I have touched.

President Qubein talked about how we are all alike; we all want the best for our children. We all want our children to have it better than we did. I had to stop and think for a minute there. What is it I wish for my children? A better life than I had? What from my life would I like them to improve on? Do I really wish that? I think this good desire comes from generations of families who had to toil and work hard for what they had, which often wasn't much.

I am all for having a good life; Rob & I have gone hungry, have had to live with family because we had nowhere to go, have faced financial disasters, have seen repossesion and collection agencies, and known the shame of taking help in many forms. God has been taking care of us though through all that!!!!!! Rob & I just bought our first home, we drive two nice cars which we just purchased in the last year or two... I don't want to go back to those hard days, EVER! But really are these the things I wish for my children? Should they be? Am I just crazy for sitting there in that auditorium and saying, "I don't wish that for my daughter or my sons."?

So what is it I do wish for my children? Certainly I wish and hope and pray that they won't make the financial mistakes Rob & I made. I hope they will have it easier financially than we did and that their choices and decisions will be wise and God-chosen when it comes to the big things in life- who they will date & marry, the jobs they will choose, where they will live, and how they will raise their children. I have always hoped they would never know death in the way my sister & I did- up close, personal, and ugly. I have always hoped and tried to protect them from family hurts that we have known.

Outside of those things, though, I have had a wonderful, rich life- a life I am very content in. Really, taking stock of what I have- I have a family that loves me. I have a momma who has supported me in everything and loved me no matter what stupid things I did or said. I had a daddy who loved me. I have a pop who loved me so much he chose to make me his daughter even when he didn't have to; he has loved me every day since and loved my hubby as his own son and my children as his own grandchildren. He has been the father he didn't have to be. I have a husband who has stood by me for over 20 years now. He has been my best friend, my love, my confidant. He helped me through college; he was there for 3 births, and only God knows how many difficult and joyous moments along the way. He has never left me even when times got tough. I have three children, three wonderful almost grown young people who love me and do show it in so many ways. I have the love of so many students, and the privilege of working with families and have done so in three states for 15 years this week.

Above all these things, I have a heavenly Father who has loved me since before time began. I have his unending mercy & forgiveness. I have His steadfast support and help in times of need, and His warm smile shines down on me from time to time to remind me that I'm right where I ought to be doing just what I ought to be.

I don't wish for my children to have a life filled with everything rich and wonderful and terrific. What do I wish for? Well first off, I don't wish- I pray.

• I pray for my children that they will serve God every single day they draw a breath, that they will marry Godly people, and will raise their children to love God and serve Him only.
• I pray that they will make wiser choices than their parents did.
• I pray that they will learn the important lessons in life that will make them better people, better husbands & wife, and better parents.
• I pray that God will be with them always and keep them in His hand and on His path.
• I pray that no matter what hard times come their way (because I believe even the wealthy have hard times, maybe not $ issues, but other just as serious issues), they will always seek Him. And when these times come, that they will pass as quickly as possible, but that my children will learn from them and become better, stronger people.
• I pray that my children will minister to others in need and won't forget "the least of these," (the lowly hershey's kisses kind of people).

I don't pray that my kids have it better than me. I pray that they become a better person than I am through whatever means God chooses to make it happen, and that they will NEVER, not even one day, stop serving Him.

Whirlwind Weekend

Oh. My. Goodness. What a weekend, and it's not finished yet! :) I'm so very tired, but it's all wonderful so how can I complain?

I'm really, very tired and need to go to bed. This has been the busiest weekend I think we've ever had. The list of duties/engagements/obligations staggers my mind, but we've just about met all of them and hopefully can have a quiet Sunday with only some church, school work, cleaning, packing, and moving, plus one kid working. :) Yeah, a much easier "light" day for us at last! ;) He He, sometimes I crack myself up! :)

I'm having some serious low back & hip pain (thinking arthritis???) & fighting some bug or something and not winning too, but before I crash, I had to post photos for anyone who might be wanting to see. Please remember these are "before" photos. There's a little work to be done on the inside of the house (new flooring, plumbing repairs, roofing, etc.) so in a couple weeks I'll post the finished photos and then photos from after the move too. I CAN'T WAIT to move in!!!

The kitchen looking towards the where the table will go.

The whole kitchen

I promised my pop- no pictures of toilets- hope this doesn't count. ;) Here is the downstairs bathroom.

The living room- the floor in the downstairs is all being replaced (except the laundry room)

Matthew & Barbara helped me vacuum and shampoo the upstairs carpets tonight. (Poor Robert will be disappointed that we didn't wait for him; he had to work tonight.) These floors only had a few stains so we thought we'd try to do this and maybe down the road we can find the funds to replace these floors with something better.

The boys' room. The two upstairs bedrooms are identical except that this one has two closets & the other one is pink and has one closet & one small door into the crawlspace up there.

The view out my kitchen window into the backyard- that is Sedgefield Elementary behind us.

If you want to see more photos, you can go here to see them on my facebook page.

Finally Home Buyers :)

It's late; I'm totally sick with some serious stomach pain- what's up with that??? I'm pooped; it's been a WONDERFUL, but long & hectic day.

Just popping in to say that we finally got a closing, and we are now the proud "buyers," as Rob says of our 1st home!!! THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Barbara has the big Presidential Scholars weekend at HPU this weekend, and that started tonight and goes all day tomorrow. So it's been a crazy day and will be even more so tomorrow. I'll write more tomorrow or Sunday and have pictures to share too from the house & HPU.

Thanks for the prayers!!! Good night!

Today is the day!

Update: So it didn't happen today. We got to the lawyer's office and the bank has messed things up. We are now waiting on them to send new paperwork and fix their mistake. We hope they'll have it figured out before we go back on Friday. Good thing I prepared for the rest of the week just in case. Rob & I were quite disappointed, but it's all okay. One way or another we'll get the house- just another practice session in patience. So, on Friday we will hopefully sign all the forms, meet the realtor, and get into our new home. Just in time to start our crazy busy weekend... :) Life is good.

In just a little while, I will be a homeowner. That's a big deal to most people, I know. But for us, it's an even bigger deal. It's a dream I laid down a long time ago as "oh that will happen someday when the kids are grown and we've had a few years to save- maybe before retirement or when grandkids start coming." It's not that I said "that will never happen," I just didn't think it would happen anytime soon so I decided to quit worrying about it or feeling bad about it. Believe me it really used to bother me, but that's another blog entry or as I like to say "that's a whole 'nother Oprah!" I've been learning to accept what is and move on; I'm not saying I've got it mastered, just learning it. :) Remember, I'm in God's "special" class; I believe I might even have an IEP up there in heaven somewhere in God's files. ;) And yes, I am sure I will arrive in heaven on a little yellow bus, but ours will be the happiest one to pull in to those gates. :)

But I digress. :) Then, just like God, once I gave up on something(s) I wanted & kept really focusing on what's truly important in life, well He drops that very thing into our laps and makes the impossible become a possibility. Maybe that was the lesson in it all- hmmm, that song & scripture says, "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness. And all these things shall be added unto you. Hallelujah, hallelujah." (Okay so be glad you can't "hear my blog" right now because you'd so hear me humming that tune.) :)

So today, after 20 years, 6 months and 5 days of marriage, my love & I will become 1st time homeowners. A BIG deal to us, our kids, and our family back home who has stood by us in all kinds of adversity and never quit believing in us. We wouldn't be signing some papers shortly if it weren't for God and for that family that's put up with us all along the way.

So please, whoever you are, if you're reading this, celebrate with us. The Thomas family has just bought a house somewhere in NC, and if you listen really closely, you might hear us shouting through tears of joy this afternoon and probably for a while. And you might even hear shouts of praise & joy and cheers all the way from Illinois too. And though these worldly concerns are hardly worthy of notice up in heaven, I'm just know that my heavenly Father will be looking down this afternoon to see two of His kids signing some papers and being more thankful than they could ever express to Him in human words for this big earthly gift He's blessed us with.

Thank You Father for this gift. You knew we always wanted it, and we are so appreciative of it. We will appreciate it more for having waited, and worked, and dreamed, and hoped, and waited some more for it. It was worth it all, and I am ever so grateful. I hope we make You proud through all of this.

With all my love for Him and for you,
Rebekah :)

P.S. Do you think I'll look silly crying while I sign the papers today? I'll try my best, but if I do, oh well! "I yam what I yam." ;)

Today's Numbers

I'm not a numbers kind of gal, but today's numbers are:

44- the # of hours until we close on our first home - but who's counting??? :)
35 - the difference in my weight from December's dr.'s appointment to today's appointment for quick physical check with a nurse- of course the scale isn't the same scale, but still I had to have lost some serious poundage in such a short time!!! :) THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!
19 - the # of progress reports I need to complete tonight

Signing off for tonight, a happy & tired, Beka Boo

A Fresh Head of Hair

It's Sunday night, and I sure am tired, but as my Momma used to say, "It's a good kind of tired!" :) It's been another full day of working in my classroom and packing here at home, and I still have more to do before I lay my head down tonight. Tomorrow we have our insurance physicals with a nurse for the life insurance policy on the house. I have a big, long list of things to get done in the next two days. Closing is coming. :)

Here's a picture for my Momma. I really do hate photos of me, but I promised her I'd put one up so she could see my super-short & dyed hair. It is seriously really short; the boys thought Rob had cut it for me with the clippers. ;) You should have seen Robert's face and heard that conversation as he tried to dig his way out of that. :) I teased him pretty good for it. So, here's a short & no white haired Rebekah. :) I don't wear my glasses much at home, so you'll have to excuse the wide-eyed, glassy-eyed me. I'm sleep-deprived, what can I say? :)